Bartenders host the best events. Try to prove me wrong, but if you’ve ever been to a Lush Life Productions events, you know. Though I’ve never been to Camp Runamok or Portland Cocktail Week (both are on my bucket list), I went to the educational Bar Institutes in Miami and Austin. Right now, I’m missing Bar Institute New York, which will showcase the year’s most popular seminars and presentations.
Over the course of the past year, I’ve skipped or missed a lot of those events, both locally and nationally. Instead of traveling for work or fun, I’ve mainly been making trips out of necessity to visit family. At the time, family took precedence, and I wouldn’t trade the memories from those trips for anything in the world.
The tiny, fearful part of my brain tries to convince me otherwise. “You could be having so much fun,” it whispers. “You’re only young once.” But even at the events I’ve attended, even at amazing Bar Institute parties and dinners with friends I love, I find myself counting down until I would be by myself, curled up under a bunch of blankets.
It would seem that there’s no right answer. But the truth is that I’ve been pushing myself beyond the limits of my body and mind for more than a year. I’ve been exhausted, both mentally and physically, and need to give myself some time to heal. Hell, after my last big trip in July, it took almost three months to recover from feeling utterly off-kilter when I got home.
Tonight, I’ll wish my friends all the best fun, drinks, and food New York has to offer. Y’all post all the pictures so I can keep up and stay jealous, alright? If you need me, I’ll be curled up on my couch under a blanket, headed for an earlyish bedtime.
This month, I’m attempting to blog my way forward by writing every day as part of Blog Like Crazy.